LiVE LiKe We r DyINg........

Aright, I never anticipated, didn’t think I was gonna be doing this. Taking out the laptop from its cozy bag and typing but hey, its 1am..and as Omawunmi would say on twitter..my eye dey shine like head lamp. I cant sleep really. Wanted to update my journal, but after going thru some of my fave blogs, am updating my blog instead. Ya lucky devils.

PHEW! Its been helluva week and i should be throwing a party but i feel just plain exhausted, you know. Like am ill yet not ill...i know, kindda confusing.cos it confuses me too. Between sniffing*cold* and checking out my fave blogs, i just cant help but wonder how some people’s lives can be so in-te-res-ting...its almost unreal. For serious.

Just going thru Lamz..”cuz i said so” blog and am like ..WT**&%# really? Do people actually live like that? Oh yes, they do. So she had to breeze into Nigeria for bla bla, then off to California, and then she had brunch with these cool guys, hung out at bla bla, then off to..wait for this ...ELLEN..like SERIOUSLY? As in she went for Ellen ..infact, d whole thing just got me reeling how can one’s life be so drab and dull, while someone else’s is so freakn interesting and television lie. URGH! Dont get me started on Kemi Adetiba and her “touchdown newyork”..when am touching down “oba market” in benin. ARRGHHH...

Okay, forget about the ranting. It happens. Tosyn Bucknor, my all time favourite gal also got a coupla posts too, just her usual inspiring self...that gets you thinking..’ how in heaven’s name does she get it going?”

Read about Lamz’ work being erased from her back up drive and i felt her pain. Kindda experienced something like that this week. Christos. All the work i had done, seriously, i had been staying up late, working on these articles for a creative workshop entry* Oh my Gosh, forgotten how difficult it was to do fiction. Had to keep adjusting my freaking thinking cap* Alright , and then i had to print, and the woman totally wiped out my entire work, plus all my other priceless, invaluable documents. Arrgggh...i cried. Yes, i did. I blamed everybody and myself. I know, i know, why dint i have a damn back up and all...but u know these things, u just assume, and then pay for ur assumption.

DEVASTATED! That WAS THE WORD. But somthing happened. You. Wont. Believe. If. i. told. You. But remind me again why i love God? I recovered my files. True. Dont know how, but i did..in d middle of the night, checked out the system i was using * BTW, shout out to my gurl of all times, iguehikha, a.k.a stapha. For loaning me her laptop all this time, when “mine” started acted up. kisses. mwah!”

Yep...and i found d files. Not ALL of them, but most of it, The articles, i had to do again and i will be sharing wiv u guys. As for d workshop, its wayyy past the deadline, but since when did deadlines ever deter me*wink* still tryn to work on my procrastinating ass. I’ll do dat tomorrow..lol.

Went to the post office today..and dropped a letter in d box. Old fashioned way twas...well u know, old fashioned, But there’s something about conventions. Nothing like “mail in the box” and this is not electronically speaking.

Trying to get my dad to send a car over. I know , i know..long shot but then who knows...sick and tired of hauling my bag-make that, “bags”- around. By God, my chest hurts you know. Plus, a car will seriously add value to my life right now. Wont tell you how.

And about that dull drab life.. been jamming Chris Allen’, LIVE LIKE WE’R DYING..and its oh so true. Really, there’s no reason you should not Go for it...today. I lost a cousin last month. She was 25., and married for 6months. It was a dark period for my family and i keep thinking...what were the many things she kept for ‘later’? What are the many things am keeping for “later”? The love, life, happiness, moments , events, occasions, friendships, laughter, truth, skills, bonds, dreams, even the almost non consequential items on my “to-do-list”...that turn out to be significant...later?

So am gonna live life , like am dying. Am gonna make that call and let him know how much he affects me, am gonna let her know she means more than she thinks , and i value her, am gonna let them know am not gonna give them the power to hurt me any more, am gonna let my dreams live, however small, however eccentric, am granting a lease of life to my insides.

Am going for that wedding, yeah, u know, d one in kafanchan? Yeah. Am going there cos i wanna know what Kafanchan looks like. And am buying those great shoes, Painting different colours on my nails* might get my ma shocked, but she’l get over it*, try some karaoke , have the laughs of the century and probably get my hair locked, always wanted to try dreads. See what i’ld look like, probably cuter, And hey, am leaving WORK at WORK.

Let’s start by me taking you to dinner ...Time ,Date, Venue.... bill’s on me!